Today I was unable to eat after midnight because I was scheduled for placement of my central line .  This is an Intravenous access (IV),  that  goes in just above your collar bone and comes out somewhere just below the collar bone.  it has 3 places to get blood or recieve medication.  I was nervous of course getting it put in, but they kept me really comfortable with warm blankets and medication.  Anyway, it has been pretty sore, but they are not skimpy around here with pain pills. They took me to my room after this procedure.  The room is pretty basic (almost dreary), and very noisy.  It has a reverse air duct type thing that filters all the air out and helps keep bad germs out of here.  I am expected to wear a face mask every time I leave this room, and cannot leave the floor as long as the chemotherapy medication is running.  They will not actually start my chemo until tomorrow and it will run continuous for 7 days.  I am currenlty being “randomized” for a special study where I may be getting an extra chemotherapy drug starting on day 8, after my initial chemos stop on day 7.  This extra time is nice because I am so scared of the chemo.  I am already feeling pretty weak, and the thought of adding something poisin to the body, ugh, I just don’t know.  But like I read in a Cory Tin Boom book, when does God give you the ticket for the train?  Just before you get on.  This is how it has been for me.  I am somehow given the resolve, and strength prior to what ever I have to go through.  I may be bawling my eyes out the night before, but when the time comes….I’m at peace.  Thank you heavenly father, for your Son, your spirit, your peace, and your salvation.  I pray for strenghth and recovery, in Jesus the Christ, amen.